INTERVIEW:

How long did it take you to write the book?
It took me over 4 years.

How did you decide on the title of the book?
Because I Killed Myself that's exactly what I did. I destroyed every possible thing within myself and my "being" to escape this world. However I awoke to a complete and pleasant surprise. In not so many words, it was God's grace that saved me. I use to feel gay for saying stuff like that "Oh, God saved me, blah, blah, blah… but when you truly experience it's like saying "no" to Russian rullet! It's REAL! A lot of my friends say there is no God, how can you believe in God's grace. It's simple, I believe because I believe! Have you ever had someone offer you "Grace"? Has someone ever been "Graceful" to you? There are such things as: Love, grace, Joy, Peace, Hatred, Anger, etc.. that all exist, so where did they come from? I know where my Ford Truck came from, but where did these other "feelings" come from? So I've asked my friends, do you believe in Love? Joy? Hatred? Peace? Of course we do, they say… I reply: Why? How do you know it's real?

After this experience do you think you would write another book?

I would love to write another book.. but its hard to come up with material. I mean some people are super gifted at writing, however I don't feel I'm one of those people.. I'm just writing straight from my head. Sometimes its going to come out a little fuzzy and sometimes its going to come out great! God willing and with his help and grace I'll write another one.

What has been your favorite part of the process?

I think completing it. It was really tough digging into those dark closed up closest that I walked away from a long time ago. So in some way or another, finishing this book was therapeutic for me I think. I didn't write this book for everyone else, I wrote it for myself. I don't mean to sound cocky, I just am being honest. I hope people can get something out of it and maybe see a completely different view and perspective of someone else, someone weird, someone odd, someone real.
What is your favorite football team?

Hahahahaa, well that has to be the New York Jets. I know I was a major Atlanta Falcons fan for a while but I couldn't bear any more tears on Sunday. Besides, isn't Sunday suppose to be a good day? A day of worship? It just turned into a day of "sadness", plus I live about 1hour away from NYC and I hope to see a game soon in person. Maybe give Farve some tips on the game;-)

Do you have a favorite author?

Not really, I do appreciate a lot of authors out there, but I don't have a favorite.

Favorite book?

The Night Before Christmas, why? For me it was the one book I could pick up and read at the age of five or six and I could focus in on the photos and then place myself within that setting of the "scene" and for some reason it gave me comfort like no other… I'm not sure why, but it just did. It was something spiritual? Something to wanting to stay young and never grow up? Something that only gets captured once a year? Who knows, I'm not a author or a writer… I'm just placing my thoughts and my heart on paper. I'm not the Easter bunny or Santa Claus or some super hero, I'm just here in this time frame with you doing everything I can to keep my head above water and to remain in God's grace. We're all the same, but yet so different…. It's a pretty incredible thing.


Any closing thoughts?

I don't know, maybe just some questions for you and all the reader's out there- yea, I have some questions..

-What do you want out of life?

-What do you want to be remembered for?

-What will you take to your grave?

-On your death bed, what will you regret and wish you had or hadn't done?

-What truly makes you smile?

-What lights you up on the inside?

-Does your life matter to anyone outside of your family?

Thanks for your time Caleb;

No, thank you!